He puts plenty of vision and I reach for plenty of dreams.
But when I wake up and see my realm, I am lost!
Totally lose my way!
All the distractions, doubts and chaos are surrounding me.
I am lost! Totally dark!
Please, how can I live like this?
let me go, show the way out!
I have to step out… with You!
(all around Geylang Lor 26, a new urban realm. A phenomenon or ‘urban design’ come just in front of my eyes, teach me how to learn!)
Looking through Ian’s terrace, I enjoy the smell of rain, earth and the jungle. Such a beautiful nature. Green grass and the leaves from tropical plants mix with the brown earth which showered by plenty of raindrops fallin from somewhere out there… such a perfect place, beautiful house.
Today I went for interview with SCDA architect. Great architects, great reputation, but seems I don’t belong there. Working in the small space and well-dressed, people in this place just look cool. Handsome guys and pretty gils. The workplace is just too rigid. not what i expected. not an artist studio. And thier last statement was, I have no strong experience in building-architecture. A very positive input to build my qualification in this area, though I am not interested for ‘project architect’ position. Just love art and design, though I have clear no idea who they are…
JGP architects, at last gave me offer to join their team. Sounds promising, but I am afraid my EP with Andy Fisher is closed to approval. Nancy told me that, she saw on the web, it’s approved! Yes, I hope it’s true! Let it Rain!
The "BLINK" that I’ve read though very impressive, actually is not applied yet in my brain system in making a fast and accurate decision. It just takes time! I love these challenge. The more I walk through, the more I am sure, It’s gonna be raining. Let it Rain!
Though I love Chopin, Isamu Noguchi, Andy Wahrol, and all the manifestos of ART that Ian has shown, but this time I cant stay for it. I have to move, again, to reality– the ordinary office with ordinary works and routines but with His ordinary inspirations. I believe I’m gonna make it. Yes, just let it rain!
You’ll just love Rain when you live in such a HOT place like Singapore.
(what you see in the image is basin with jungle at the back. Physically It has nothing to do with the rain, but philosophically It has!)
I AM FINISHED at the PLEDGE!
I pledge my life to You. I am finished.
All that I can hope for, let it be Yours. Paint again all the colors in me. I am finished.
change all that old prespectives with the new vision. I am finished.
Lord, I am Yours, I am finished.
I am standing in the new ground, the solid rock, that leads me nowhere but faith. That’s all remain. I am finished.
I put all the precious. plans, visions, mariagge, career, self, and … I am finished.
Be blessed with all I have, as I am finished.
And if You won’t stand by my side, that’s it I am finished.
I am totally finished. But I know You’re not.
I am finished, for a new starting point with You!
Praise God, I am amazingly desperated. So does Ian, My boss, he can’t sleep and almost lost his project! We are desperated!
My Employment Pass application was rejected after almost 4 times appeal. And after long negotiation with the authority in MOM, we arrived at one conclusion which was provided by them; His company is too young and small and I don’t have enough ‘good experience’ (???I have more than 4 years experiences in Indonesia and Shanghai with large exposure in architecture, landscape and urban design projects in the most dynamic developing environment and working with reputable design company, which one of them was the one posted me from Singapore. If I am lacking of that experiences that they’re talking about, why I can find other two job offers at EP level within 3 days in one hour interview? Who is at the best position to decide the significance of experience and skills; the company which know exactly what they need or MOM officer who ‘maybe’ has no idea at all about the design job?) and my salary is too low for EP application (what??? my salary is MUCH higher than S$ 2500, which is stated in MOM regulation as the standar for EP application)
Since I was in Shanghai I’ve been trying at least 3 times EP assesment tool, and I was definitely successful for that.
I can’t believe! In this such an advance country which offers ‘A WORLD OF OPPORTUNITY’, there are still plenty on un-clear policies and hassels! And I am here and entrapped without opportunity.
I was embarassed with all this circumstances. And so was Ian, I am here because of the job he offered. And nobody to blame for that! For hours we argued and he shouted like crazy at me! That’s it, I am quit! He’s attitude was terrible, so emotional, I can’t believe it, for such a professional architect like him 
Now my relation with Ian is getting better. And I have more motivation to enjoy the work and disscusion with him. Ian is just one of the best architect I’ve ever met. Graduated from one of the most prestigious school in the world; Architectural Association in London and studied music at Royal Academy of Music,
